Wah! It’s the last week for the month Liao… So fast… CNY also passed Liao… Another 3 more months is my 21st birthday liao le…. Time pass so fast… After my birthday 3 days is also our 5 year Anniversary liao… reli so fast….

This morning around 5+am, was being shocked awaken by a nightmare…. I dreamt of hubby and I quarreled, and he wanted to please me, he did a SOrrie poster for me, but with my lifetime most hate and scare creature on it! It is XXXXXX…..* I shall not say what’s that, sically anyone out there wan to scare mi go n buy that scare me…* Den I was looking at the container with the creature inside…. Suddenly it came out! –faint- I was so afraid that I anyhow took something(tissue box) to hit it, but only kana the leg nia… den it run so fast den I was so fcuking freak out, and I cover blanket over me and cry n cry… But when I open my eyes, Phew~ luckily it’s just a dream…. But I dun dare to sleep liao… I was reli so scare loh.. Den hubby said he hug me and tap me sleep, but still I’m so scare, I even use my hands to force open my eyes not to sleep, (even though that time I was darn tired and sleepy) cuz I’m afraid I might have that dream again… den hubby said I reli so scare of the XXXXXX even in the dream also scare… haha… even asked hubby accompany me to the toilet! But I was reli freak out that I look at the floor so afraid that the creature might come out… -faint- And I hold on to hubby’s short to sleep, cuz I need to feel his presence, only then I felt secured.. hehe…. I know I still act like a kid lah, but it’s reli scary mahz…. Phew~! Long time din have nightmare liao, guess I’ve been into too much stress and sadness le bah…. Sad.... just now my colleague even commented that today my dark rings is so jialat! haiz... Must be the nightmare and stuff !

Some times I reli tell myself to hate him, But after he sayang me, I’ll tell myself that I must be there for him, cuz no matter what this is the path that I chose, cannot blame anyone… But it’s reli so hard for me. But it’s okay, I’ll take a step at a time to learn to forgive and forget….