Aiyoh…yesterday duno wad gotta inside mi again…. Keep cry non-stop…!! Guess I’m crazy le bah…. Haha…. until today wake up my eyes like goldfish like that (swollen ), no choice but to put on my spectacle to work…diao~~ toot toot look~~ haha…. duno y nowadays, I like cant let people say leh…not even joke… if not, I’ll cry like hell..(like kid loh!!) haiz…. Siao cha boh!

Yesterday after knock off, met Khim at Boon Keng MRT go home together….after that went to Hougang Mall to buy Mascara (Cant live without it..) haha… den go ah ma house eat dinner, (as mother yiyi had bring mama’s cooking to ah ma house to eat..) den after I scoop my rice, den I found that dinning table no place for mi to seat, den I accidentally blocked mother yiyi’s view(cuz she watch tv) den she say m I transparent? Den I cry like hell non stop for almost 2 hours…. Wth man! Den went back mother yiyi house, bath…wait till my hair dry, den sleep….cuz reli felt so sick…

Den yesterday night, I kept sweat cold sweat sia~~ guess I’m gonna sick anytime…noooooooooo!!!!!!!!! Cuz I hate to be sick! Such a waste to see doctor!! Den this morning when I ‘pui’ my ‘tan’ got blood again!!! Guess I’m too heaty liaoz… cuz before that I almost everyday eat tidbits…haha…. it’s so addictive u know?? Hard to stop sia… den mi now keep drink water….until keep go toilet.. Nb!! Den yesterday wanted to look for von to chit chat downstairs de….den also nb!! She playing mahjong… nowadays she’s tai tai…dun need work….everytime mahjong….haha….

Yesterday suddenly duno y boy ask mi if I want to move back to Hougang anot… actually I reli love to… but aiyah…duno lah….haiz…. at batok I had all my freedom…. But abit bored… den at Hougang I’m very happy, but relative they love to tease people so much until now (I’m already 20 yrs old) I’m still cant use to it….. cuz I dun like people say those (etc) : “ aiyah, I’m pretty den u, baby dun like those ugly people de lar, they onli like pretty people like us, den everything also dun wan to tell mi (den hai wo sometimes say wrong things I also duno), ………….. so I reli felt I’m like not fitted it the family anymore…. Yesterday duno y I keep have the thought a renting a house outside or stay at friend house…but I know of cuz it’s impossible de lah….i felt kindna ‘no way out for mi’………. like I’m reli being forced to a corner, I felt o couldn’t breath anymore……….. like will suffocate anytime… sometimes I ask myself, did I do anything wrong? Y must I suffer? Y god want mi to take this path? Or did God let mi suffer now, want mi to train myself for taking hardship? Will I be able to live a better life all after this shit? I duno … I reli duno…..

Sometimes I reli felt like commit suicide, but was afraid of the pain…wad if I didn’t die?? That will be worst right? People around me will also be very sad….especially my mama…. Haiz….

Dun worry for me, I’m fine………Just felt like spouting Rubbish!!.....

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