Oh..it's raining heavily out there now...raining days...raining mood.SadiS...

Alcohol really can make someone 'forget everything at that moment' but when you are awake you still have that problem... but somehow at least you can stop thinking about that topic or rather i should say Problem... haiz... really wish that i duno anything or forget everything include him... but i couldn't.... actually (even till now) whenever i come to think about that problem, really feel like ending my life...( tears uncontrol de drop down..)but i noe i dun have the guts, or maybe i couldn't bear to leave all my families and let them cry and feel sad for me... but i noe someday i will sure cant tahan it anymore... but i duno when will that day be..sooner or later...at least i can feel at ease when i'm with my family... ( my own side de family...) and they will be welcoming me any time and i also noe no matter wad happen they will also stand my side and help me( that's what my jie jie say to me during my ROM...)... cuz they are all healthy family... but i'm not trying to say anythink... but at least not much thing to do with 'money' cuz hubby de family all gambling de... all is money and money... haiz..i really hate to face the reailty... haiz....this weekend going to my family chalet.. den 22 Sep going to Zoo..( which i always ask hubby to go but he dun wan..haiz...) finally can go le...love to go ZOo...that's the reason why i love to go back hougang... cuz reli fun activity every weekend... hopefully by then i can forget everything...if not maybe i will be force to go back Hougang..( WOODBRIDGE Hospital..10 mins walk from my house..haha...) and i noe...my family noe i'm a person who couldn't think of bright side.. somehow depression....and i also noe i have the problem seriously....that's why sometime i tend to be unreasonable to hubby... cuz i duno how to vent all the unhappiness out...that's why they also call me siao... and i also can 100% sure i will get post-natal depression and pre-natal depression if i have baby...haiz...

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