Oh so tired today…. Have already get myself prepared for work at 7.25am…still got time…so went back to the bed to sleep awhile more….wah…7.55am liao…. Normally I get out of the house at 7.40-7.45am de…shit shit..faster rush to work…. Haiz… cuz yesterday din not sleep well…. Went to bed at 11.45pm…but couldn’t get in to my dreamland…toss here n there… end up wake up… den tok to hubby … cuz he’s at the living room with his Cousin WX…. Den see see look look there… finally “ ‘周’ 公” come n look for me for regular chess session…. Haha…. But still toss here n there until about 2++am den sleep… den he 5am den sleep…haiz… den today MC loh..nv go to camp again…haiz… but also nvm lar… none of my business also…

Yesterday he told me that his buddy Rooney de sister’s company is recruiting some staff…better income den my current company..but it’s at town area… but nvm larz… now money is more important den me… cuz I’m gonna live on my own… I dun wan to depend on him… haiz…hopefully he doesn’t read my blog.. But I also dun tink he will read lar… cuz he think that blog is a stupid thing… onli the things he do not stupid….damn it…

duno y when ever I see him I reli veri sian.. summore when he vent anger at me I more angry…. Or whenever he give me that kind of ‘LJ’ face… den I will scold him.. after that he will try to give me ‘happy’ face… yesterday he still say wad y I couldn’t sleep? Still say that a person that couldn’t sleep well shows that he/she was troubled by something …. CB…still got the cheek to tell me all this shit… knn… (shows that he dun care for me when he din even noe I’m troubled!) (-_-’’) haiz… at times I reli feel regretted getting married so early…( some more I’m not shot gun…reli dig my own grave..) that time I still insisted to get married where the whole world of relatives and friends including all the gods( where i go to pray n ask..they say I’m fated to get married later age..) ask me to think carefully not to get married so early… and that time my thinking is I can change their mindset that I will be living in happiness after I get married…. But I was wrong..totally wrong.. others(my ex-colleague from kimage..) may think wah….u now good loh…tai tai loh..work in office so good…relag relag… but there’s reli a lot they duno and I din not want to say…haiz…yesterday I asked him…wad if 1 day I ask for a divorce wad will u do? His reply: “ very angry loh….i din not do wrong why you want to divorce with me? If u reli do that to me, I also wun want to be friend with you…” wad?? Never do wrong…I think the whole world onli he think that he did nothing wrong…OMG…. Haiz… but of course I dun think divorce will be a good solution larz…( dun worry..) haiz… I reli duno when will he change n learn to think….Haiz… some more nowadays everytime vent anger on me….WTF? that’s why sometimes cant blame me for being unreasonable to him…. Aiya! In total= the sight of him make me pekcek lar….hiaz..but all these doesn’t mean my love for him faded…I still love him deeply…but he’s the one who make me reli disappointed again n again…